The last three months have been a whirlwind. It’s been a crazy, exciting, gut-wrenching and overall interesting time for me.

I’ve had unbelievable highs and indescribable lows. Moments where I was ready to give up some of my biggest dreams and aspirations – moments when my plans all seemed for naught and I imagined giving them up to save my sanity.

I wasn’t suicidal – so no worries… it had a lot to do with the fine line between balancing my working career/home life/my writing goals/and my financial goals.

Everything came in direct conflict. I usually love my job, I’m usually pumped about my writing… everything feels almost effortless. So dealing with everything crashing down at once was stressful.

I managed to miss a great opportunity with a mentor, got practically no writing done, and basically felt sorry for myself and my situation for too long.

I’m on the tail end of it now and I’ve discovered the following:

Nothing replaces my time with my kids – and I’ve been too busy to just enjoy them for most of their lives

My writing career will happen as it happens. I’m not in a rush – I want to enjoy the ride. I need this time with my kids… in a few years they won’t be interested in mom.

I need to stay the course I’ve set for myself. My ultimate timeline for print publication is 2013 and I can achieve that – I need to keep it slow and steady. Focused.

I can get everything I want out of life if I just give myself the time I need. I may even readjust my timeline for writing full-time to a ten year goal.

For now, I’m cherishing the moments… I might even work on my health and some exercise.

I’m not sure… one thing I know, even if I’m not published or famous or a best-seller… I’m going to just keep writing.

April