Nov
Is believing enough?
I impress myself sometimes. I give myself chills. I find moments of sheer genius and just KNOW that a scene or whole chapter is the shiznit. But then I back away from a project, temporarily, mind you, and begin to doubt myself.
Why do some of us writers go through phases like this? I love my work, I loathe it, I tolerated it, I love it. And then, just to throw a wrench in the whole process, halfway through a book, I have a great idea to start it at another point and actually change a major plot point and character background. Months and months of work for what…..
It can be so frustrating. So why do I torture myself? Because I believe that it will all pan out and be worth it eventually. Is that enough?
It will take stamina, determination and all those other words you see on posters with inspirational scenes.
So for now, believing, well, it will just have to be enough.
Keep believing. I’m doing NaNoWriMo. As of this morning, I’m up to 28,074 words. As in–words, just words. They are formed into sentences, but I cringe when I reread some of this stuff. I already know parts I want to change, but not now. I have to believe, too, that later, like next month at the earliest, I can whip this manuscript into something good.
November 10th, 2008 at 8:40 amI was going to do Nano this year, but i coulnd’t get organized. I’ll challenge myself next month. Those are always great ways to bump up the word count. Then edit, edit edit!
November 10th, 2008 at 6:50 pm